Who taught you what “too much” looks like?
And how much of yourself did you remove to make sure nobody ever called you that?
Maybe your life looks fine from the outside
Maybe you’re very capable.
Thoughtful.
You understand your patterns.
Good at understanding what other people need.
You might even have become so good at being easy to love or eager to please that you’re not always sure where the performance ends and you begin…
Who were you not allowed to be?
The difficult one?
The loud one?
The needy one?
The selfish one?
The angry one?
The sensual one?
The one who said no?
The one who wanted more?
So who did you become instead?
Easygoing?
Independent?
Helpful?
Successful?
Low-maintenance?
Always fine?
Funny how a rule can eventually start sounding like a personality…
Who annoys you?
The loud one?
The lazy one?
The needy one?
The selfish one?
The attention seeker?
The one who changes their mind?
The one who doesn’t explain themselves?
Interesting.
Because sometimes the thing you judge hardest in someone else is the thing you were never allowed to be
Testimonials
This is not a book
That’s Not Me is a seven-stage guided sensual journey that helps you notice the roles and responses you’ve learned, reconnect with what you actually feel and practise choosing from a more honest place.
It’s reading, listening, writing and body-based practice woven into one immersive experience.
What You'll Explore
✨The roles you’ve mistaken for personality
✨The rules you’re still quietly obeying
✨What your body knows before you explain it away
✨The desires you’ve learned to soften
✨What it feels like to make a choice that’s genuinely yours
You don’t need another improve-yourself project darling.
You need a way to hear the self you’ve always been who’s already here.
I’ve got you! And if you need extra support, this is a book you can talk with!
A structure that holds your most tender parts gently
Each day follows a deliberate rhythm:
✨ Listen and arrive in your body.
✨ Read and recognize the pattern.
✨ Write and separate what you learned from what feels true.
✨ Map where it lives in your body.
✨ Practise responding from a more honest place.
The repetition matters. You don’t just understand the role you’ve been playing. You begin to notice when it appears, what it’s protecting and what might become possible without it.
Listen to a sample of Camilla guiding you
Questions
and answers
No. Sensuality is your capacity to notice, feel, receive and respond through your body.
The journey explores presence, desire, boundaries, emotion and honest choice.
Sexuality may be part of that wider territory, but it isn’t the focus here.
Therapy can help you understand your patterns. This journey gives you a structured way to notice how those patterns live in your body, your choices and your everyday reactions.
Many people already know why they do what they do. The harder part is catching it while it’s happening.
That’s the space this book works with. It can deepen the work you’re already doing, but it doesn’t replace therapy or professional care.
No. It’s not clinical, though it is trauma-informed.
It’s not coaching, though you’ll be held and challenged.
That’s Not Me is an educational and reflective guided experience.
It doesn’t diagnose, treat or replace therapy, medical care or professional support.
It’s not a belief system, but it honors ritual, and the body’s innate intelligence.
It’s a ritual learning container for people ready to feel more, live more truthfully, and reconnect with all aspects of their self.
If something feels too intense, you can pause, return later or choose not to continue a particular practice.
Yoga can make you more aware of your body. This journey gives that awareness somewhere very specific to go.
You’ll explore the roles you’ve learned to perform, the rules you still obey, where your body says yes before you do and what you may have traded for love, safety or belonging.
If yoga has helped you feel more, this journey can help you understand what those feelings are asking you to see.
That’s exactly where this journey may be useful.
Knowing why something happens doesn’t always help you notice it in the moment. The practices invite you to recognise the pattern in your body and experiment with a different response while real life is happening.
No. You won’t be facing pages of empty space and wondering what to write.
The book gives you a structured progression, research informed teachings, guided audio, specific prompts, body maps and practices to carry into ordinary life.
It’s extensively researched, but it isn’t pretending to be a clinical treatment.
The method draws from research into expressive writing, narrative processing, metacognition, attention, memory, embodiment and interoception: your ability to notice what’s happening inside your body.
You won’t be asked to believe in anything mystical. And the book won’t reduce your inner life to a theory either. The research shapes the structure. Your lived experience remains the authority.
No.
You can move through one stage each day, pause when something needs more time or return after a break. There’s no falling behind and no need to start over.
You decide darling! This is not school, nor a task.
This is quality Me-time.
No. It’s a carefully sequenced seven-day experience.
Each day combines reading, expressive writing, body mapping and two guided audio practices. The order matters: every day opens a different layer and builds on what came before it.
There’s nothing to pass, perform or keep up with. Just a private structure designed to take you somewhere.
No. Every journey is designed to stand on its own.
Start with That’s Not Me if its central question feels closest to what you’re living now.
Your book connects you to the accompanying online material through a QR on the last page. You scan the QR code and follow the instructions to recieve access.
If you buy the book from the author her eat this site, you won’t have to scan the QR code. Instead you’ll receive an email with a login link directly after purchase.
Aurora is the practice partner within the I AWAKE book universe.
When reader access opens, she’ll help you continue exploring the questions and practices connected to your journey. She won’t tell you who to be or replace your own judgment.
Aurora isn’t publicly available yet. Join the waiting list and you’ll receive clear information about timing, eligibility and cost before making any commitment.
The journey doesn’t ask you to adopt a new belief system, worship anything or turn away from your faith.
It uses reflection, imagination and attention to the body as ways of listening more honestly to yourself. Any symbolic language is offered as an invitation, not a doctrine.
Your faith remains yours. Nothing in this book asks to take its place.
What's
inside
✨ Full-color, soft matte cover
✨ 331 pages with full color illustrations, 8 chapters with large margins that gives you plenty of space to journal, doodle, and reflect
✨Large format, 8″x10″, for comfortable writing experience
✨ 2 audio-guided sessions per day accessed via QR code in the book hosted on a course platform
✨ 1 audio-guided imaginal journey deep into your mind to meet an aspect of yourself accessed via QR code in the book hosted on a course platform
Download the first chapter for free!
You shouldn’t have to translate yourself to feel seen
This book doesn’t quietly assume one gender, one attachment pattern, one kind of relationship or one “right” way to live.
Whether you move closer, pull away, over-give, adapt or protect your independence, there’s room to recognize yourself here.
Different ways of loving, relating and living aren’t added as an afterthought. They’re woven into the language, reflections and practices, so you can explore your inner life without being forced into somebody else’s story.
This experience is for You if…
✨ You have adapted so much that you no longer know what feels genuinely yours.
✨ You keep performing a version of yourself that works for others.
✨ You understand your patterns intellectually but struggle to change them in daily life.
✨ You want a private, structured, science based yet warm and human way to reconnect with your own experience and with your body.
Each of the seven days include
✨ 1 guided audio practice before you start reading to ground you in your body
✨ 1 daily theme to focus your attention and help you name the unspoken
✨ 3 prompts that match the daily theme with ample writing space within the book
✨ 1 body map for you to track your sensations in relation to the daily theme
✨ 1 guided audio practice to close the day with awareness and self compassion
The journey also includes an audio guided imaginal practice to be done after the 7 days for deeper integration as well as one longer guided audio practice you can experience anytime you need a gentle dose of sensual nervous system regulation.
You can talk with this book
Together with your personal practice partner, Aurora, you can talk with this book.
Aurora is part of the I AWAKE universe.
She knows the material inside the book intimately and the questions it may give rise to.
Her role is to support you as you turn what you read into actions that change your life.
You can to talk to her about a passage you’ve underlined in your book, a pattern you’ve started to notice or let her help you turn insights into lived change.
She won’t tell you who to be.
She’ll help you stay close to what the book has opened up for you.
She’ll help you metabolise what you learn and practice it.
Aurora is currently available only by invitation.
You’ll receive an invitation when access connected to That’s Not Me opens again.
What parts of yourself did you learn to dislike before you even got to know them?
What if more than half your personality is just what others praised, what you weren’t allowed to be and what got you through the day?
Let’s create the conditions that allows you to get intimate with the part of you behind the performance…
If you buy this experience directly from the author, you’ll get immediate access to your audio practices and the physical book signed & dedicated to you ❤️
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You’ve spent enough time becoming who you needed to be.
Maybe it’s time to hear from the rest of you.
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